What you said makes sense. I am kinda paranoid (especially right now) about being used, or taken advantage of.

As far as the "race to bottom", a lot of days at work it's just been a race to the end of the day, like I can't wait to get home and rest. I love my job, don't get me wrong, but after not doing ANYTHING job-wise for 2 years and basically nothing at all since I graduated in June, it's likely that I'm just not used to doing demanding work, both physically and emotionally, for 8 hours at a time! And yes, my job definitely makes me anxious. I'm CONSTANTLY worried I'll screw everything up.

And I liked the campground (and waterpark rides) part as well, except the campground in my dream was much bigger than my work place LOL so I was sprinting to get the papers I forgot and knew I wouldn't make it back in time because it was so big...and of course then I got lost LOL