Ohhh my dear Trin~~~ you must remember how many people love you, you can tell because we sit with you, and listen to you, and never leave you alone. being only human ourselves, we cannot be perfect, nor should you expect that of yourselves. please, practice accepting that we are each, including you, doing the best we can at the moment, and tho the moments seem to run into days and weeks and years, one unexpected day, they will run out, and it will be over, and you will have peace and unity, because you kept working, kept trying, kept the faith with your friends... inside and out. Forgive me for loving this time of year,,, maybe you can even look at how i do it and find some relief. i hope you are sleeping right now, and find good things to wake up to,,, ***HUGS*** Gus