I think that you need to concentrate on your own life... If the therapist recommended you not have contact, and she has decided to go on and live her life (which she should) then you should too. Don't worry about what she is doing with someone else while you are sitting at home waiting for you to call and say she is "better". Get back to living your own life, see your friends, be social... I am not saying go get wasted and pick up girls, that would probably not help... I think that if "Becky" was really worried about her road to recovery for herself, she wouldn't be going out and drinking. If she is not worried about recovering, then you can't be wasting your life waiting for her to "get better" and call you like nothing happened and get back to your old life.... With the hurt that you are feeling and what has occured, things will not be the same and if you both decide you want to try and work things out, it will be starting over and working through your problems... But that day may never come... Get back to living again...