I don't understand how I can be feeling good one day and the next I am down and the old tapes are playing again. Friday I was feeling great, yesterday so so but not knowing what I wanted to do, and today I'm back feeling depressed and like nothing is ever going to get better. I'm feeling like I don't deserve to be happy. I don't have anyone to do anything with. I'm feeling so all alone. I want so much to have friends and I want so much to find a man that will be loving and kind. I'm scared though. I don't know how to make friends or if I can trust anyone to be my friend. Why am I so screwed up. I just wish someone would tell me what is wrong w/me and why I can't be at peace.