I really appreciate all the help I agree I am ruminating! That is for sure. But it's not like the break up happened 2 weeks ago or 2 months ago. It just happened and the problem is we still love each other. Yes, I know I have to move on but if you love someone it's hard to just move on!!! Especially when the other person loves you too!!!!! Yes, I do have a lot of friends (definitely blessed with that) and a lot of nice family members and I do LOVE my life. I have a lot of hobbies (reading, in grad school, exercise). I am a very happy person and yes, I don't like being depressed like this! I MIGHT have like one sad day a month.

Yes, I agree I am powerless over her actions but at the same time, I still think she needs me. I know she loves me and it's hard to just remove her from my life if she is still my friend. Girlfriend or not, I want to see her happy.

Ya'll don't have to respond unless ya have any suggestions. For right now, I'm just going to be patient with everything, let everything unfold, and keep my head held high and continue to express my emotions and trust my friends will get me through this.