Before I start rambling and saying mean things about my husband, I want to say that:
1. I don't want out of my marriage
2. This is only one side of the story
3. I can be a bit dramatic sometimes

With that said, I'll start. My husband and I recently started marrigae counselling. I have a past of abuse and he blames all our problems on that and my depression. About a year ago I told him that I am starting to feel very down again and asked him for help before it's too late. He said he didn't know what to do. Well, neither did I. Earlier this year it got really bad and I didn't know which way is up anymore, I just didn't want to live like that. So I gently told him that I am not threatening him, I just want to let him know that if I don't get help then I don't know what's going to happen. He said he would help. So, I waited............................................................................................................................

A few months went buy and I started crying and begging him to just please help me, or get some help because I can't go on like this. So, I waited.......................................................................................

By this time I wasn't feeling depressed anymore, just really, really angry everytime I think about him and I started to resent him. How can you do this to someone you love? All I wanted was a hug when I didn't deserve one, some kind words after a bad day etc, but we just fought and fought over every little thing, we even almost got divorced because we couldn't agree on the name of an actor!!! He lives his life completely independent of me. He never says how he feels because he says I just get mad... The times he did share his feelings he said things like: "Everone has to deal with bad stuff, why can't I do it too?" or "What happened to you was long ago and it's time you grow up and get over it" That's not sharing feelings, that's just being cruel!!! Why can't he see that? Now he never talks. When I talk to him he doesn't look at me, he always looks away, which is his way I suppose, but he doesn't give any indication that he hears me, because I can't read his face this way. So everytime I have to ask "Did you hear me?" I would say to him that I had a bad day, and that's where the conversation ends. If I ask if he heard me or repeat it, then he just gets mad at me....
Last week was the first time we went to a counsellor, after almost a year of me begging him. I'm so angry I can't sleep.... I have no outlet....

Do I have a right to be this angry? Or am I expecting too much of him?