no this is not a SU note but us saying we have no more energy or fight left in us right now the season is destroying us we trigger so easily at almost everything we feel lost alone scared confused hurt angry sad despondent destroyed damaged hopeless helpless beyond repair or hope have failed after so many many months of not SI so for now we are giving up we have nothing left inside to give we are useless please forgive our selfishness we will be around but not trying for now thanks for letting us say this