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Ygrec23 · Sep 27, 2010, 06:32 AM

Sugahorse asked: "For what reasons do you go to therapy and what are you hoping to achieve?"

The immediate reason I go to therapy is to get rid of the horrible self-termination thoughts I used to spend most of every day thinking. They were unbearable. They occupied my entire life for three years. The more general reason was to get out of the fog of incomprehension generated by my defense mechanisms and finally, for the first time in my life, be aware and available to interact with other people in Real Life. And that meant finding out what I was really hiding from way back in the beginning. That's what we're doing now. And since I trust and admire my T (my wife and I were friends of hers and her husband's before), we had a fast start and are already doing serious stuff. I leave her office feeling intensely upset or intensely happy. Which means we're doing serious things. I was really ready for this, and raring to go. I think she's really happy with me, since I was primed for therapy, can answer her questions, can cooperate with her on what we're doing and how we're doing it. I want her to ask me all the hard questions (including the hardest) over and over. It's just going well, and I just know this is going to be successful. Take care!