As some of you may know, I did a horrible thing and kissed a guy my roomate liked, I didn't really know the extent of the "like". I figured she thought he was cute and that was that. It turns out she had a really big crush on him. She had always told me how she never wanted to be in a relationship again... so imagine my horror when I found this out the next day. This is the absolute absolute, lowest, most horrible, dispicable thing I have EVER done in my ENTIRE life! Before this time there was nothing that I had done that I've regretted, but I regret what I've done soo badly. She said she can't even look at me let alone talk to me and will never EVER be able to trust me again. The worst part for me is loosing her trust, it really really breaks my heart and I'd do ANYTHING to have that moment back. I just don't know how to deal with this, I feel like a horrible, dirty rotten, disgusting THING. I feel like some DEMON took over my body that night, because usually I'd NEVER EVER EVER do something like that to a friend. I'm beyond dissapointed in myself, I don't know if I'll ever be able to forgive myself and i feel like I deserve to feel pain for this.