This could go in a few diff. spots. PtSD, abuse, not sure, but I am depressed. Trapped. No one here except my dog and my mom.

I am very very needy right now. I feel like I am 5. I guess due to the trauma thing.

Don't know how to handle my emotions.

I don't feel anything really except crying. Ranges of bad. Like I laugh maybe for a minute. But I know I can't change anything. I don't feel as if I have an outlet.

Last night the kids came by for halloween. I cried because I never see anyone here. The man that came with them said yes, no one here ever really leaves their house.

I feel anonymous and like a piece of garbage. I dont know if I posted this - abuser was arrested and put in prison last week.

1.5 years since I met him

9 mo since court

vegetable since court

i don't know what I am supposed to do with myself. I feel like I am trapped.