i believe that what the majority of people here are saying is this. show restraint, respect other's boundaries and quit e.mailing Bob. i really wish you would look at not posting all those replies when you get back on board. as several have said, your replies are going to be outdated. it will look very obsessive. it is obsessive.

what people are saying about "perspective" is good. you step back, look at what you did to get blocked and then you show that you learned from it. learning from it means that you won't discuss what you've been discussing there and that you also understand why you aren't going to post about said subject. it upsets people.

understanding other's boundaries means that you step back and think before you do something that might affect them. you read other's posts and try to understand where THEY are coming from. NOT you. them. boundaries are very healthy and everyone needs them. you need some too. within yourself.

i have read your posts, sporadically, since you came over here and i agree that you are getting some sort of "payback or payoff" from all of this drama. and we all do that at some time in our lives. but it isn't healthy. it doesn't cause growth because it promotes denial. denial is when you just don't think about what you did and how it affected others. denial is avoidance. you just go your merry way and let things fall where they may. i truly believe that you're in denial about PB. learning why you hurt people and then deciding what to do, inside yourself, will help you.

i don't want to upset you. i want to be supportive. step back and print this entire thread out. read it several times and makes notes about what you can use from it. i think it will really help you. turn the 'puter off. take a walk. do something for yourself. a hot bath. drink a soda. have a treat. be good to greensleaves. pat