Hi Rebecca,

Please be gentle with yourself. Things just started! It is OK to have the gray area. You can be putting new actions slowly into place while still feeling run-down, aggravated, disgruntled etc. These things take time.
I have this postcard hanging above me on my corkboard. It is an old WWII war-effort image in b&w of a woman working on an airplane, and the caption reads "I'm Working On It." This is all you can do. Keep taking care of yourself. Get some rest whenever you need to. Push yourself a little bit whenever you can, even if you are feeling less than up to it. If you see a group you might like, try to get there and meet a few new people. If you don't see one you like you could always post something... Like a group for watching old movies, or for knitting, or beading... or poetry, creative writing. With depression it can be so difficult to push past the hurt. And sometimes you just need to rest and take care of yourself. Sometimes it is important to get to therapy. And sometimes it is important to push past the exhaustion and get out to chat with another person. In doing so, I bet you'll find others who are feeling much the same way you are.

Many good thoughts your way.

Elana