Ok, I have drafted this but don't want to send it yet! I know this all sounds really stupid but losing our friendship is really messing with my head. It also bugs me that she doesn't seem as bothered :S I feel so used but also I am eager to be taken back and used again! I mean, it is about really dumb things - like she sent someone else a postcard and not me... but I keep playing that postcard around and around! In fairness, she doesn't have my address, but she hasn't asked for it either. I can't even think how she might have decided that I just wanted to blow her off.