Hi, I just joined this website. I've had OCD as long as I can remember but it's gotten worse since I've had kids. My worst issue is that I am obsessed with fear of them dying. Every morning I wake up thinking about all the possible ways they could be killed and how I can avoid it. I have repetitive behaviors such as touching light switches with both hands, stepping on cracks, checking things 8 times, the list goes on. I worry that if I don't do all these things that my kids are going to die. And I know it's irrational to think that somehing so trivial would contribute to a death but OCD is not rational. It's quite a burden to feel his way, but I already feel better just telling somebody else. My husband wouldn't understand, and as a stay-at-home-mom of 3 small children I can't afford therapy.