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Old Sep 27, 2010, 09:44 PM
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Aw, I'm so sorry that you went through what you did! Childhood sexual abuse is so devastating. Not having a supportive, loving family makes it all the worse. It's no small wonder that moving back in with your parents has made things worse for you. I was in the same situation 12 years ago. I had to move back in with my parents for almost a year when I had mono really bad and couldn't work. They really beat up on me then too. They didn't believe that I actually had mono even after I showed them the doctor's report and my blood test results. Anyhoo, their home was a really toxic environment as is yours.

I tried to talk to my parents about my emotions and the pain I felt during childhood in a non-confrontational way. I really wanted to resolve things with them and improve our relationship. That got me nothing but more pain and re-injuring. Living with them totally undid whatever psychological progress I had made since I went away to college ten years before. Twelve years later. I've finally learned to not talk about my emotions to them, because they're not going to give me the support that I need. They're incapable of it since they've never worked through their own childhood issues. And it hurts too much to get rejected by them. I would have been better off if I had never turned on my hearing aids while living with them, lol.

Anyway, I just want to say I'm really sorry that you're in so much pain. It sounds like it enrages you that your parents inflicted so much pain on you and you're left to deal with the aftermath and find a way through. I feel the same way many times. If it's any comfort, everyone has to clean up the mess that their parents made of them.
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Sameer6
Thanks for this!
Distressed2010