these are the things I want to talk about at T tomorrow. I know my T is planning on doing trauma work and I know I NEED to do trauma work, but this is what is going on in my life RIGHT NOW. The trauma needs to be dealt with, and it's pushing at me too, but maybe I'm used to that kind of internal pressure. The external pressure right now is almost more than I can handle.

• my first week at college
• both of my sons are in juvie for truancy
• my van is in the shop and may not be repairable
• my boys (13 and 16) want to move in with me
• I have a divorce/custody trial coming up and have to represent myself
• group T starts again this Sat & one of the participants is a former friend who now hates me
• just everything everything everything everything. Too much.

I'm trying to use my mindfulness skills. I keep telling myself to be here now
Be. Here. Now.