This is my first time here. I dont know what caused your pain but as I read your words I felt it deep within myself. I am not going to try to convience your choice of life, or death because I too am struggling with the very same empty dark lonely feelings as you. Like you, I am tired of all the pain that never ends. Maybe knowing that some one hears you and truly gets it, meaning ME....you can hold on a little longer. I came here to find out if I could read anything that could maybe make me want to keep trying...........and I read about "you". I know this may sound sick but I dont mean for it to be taken that way........just knowing there is a person that feels almost the exact pain I feel made me....right at this very moment to give myself more time to think.Yes thinking is mainly what is causing my pain so I assume the same goes for you.

Stay for a little while longer. you can help some one and by doing that it will make you feel a moment of peace. I know it's not much but it is something, as I said I see my feelings in your post. I have done the VERY SAME things to try to end it. But........I am still alive and trying to want life.