I have always had these symptoms and nobody would believe me. Even after becoming a mental health professional, with training in communicative disorders also, and discovering some of the physical basis behind my symptoms (I have no tensor tympani reflex - an automatic response that protects you from exposure to loud noise). People only tell me to stop complaining about nothing, or they tease me about my sensitivities or get offended when I automatically brace myself when the car I am a passenger in is about to turn. Sometimes they have used my sensitivities to torment me.
They only validation I ever find is online. I know that my sensory processing difficulties and the invalidating responses I have always received to my differences are a big factor behind my mental and emotional problems. It seems small, but is a never-ending source of trauma.
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“We should always pray for help, but we should always listen for inspiration and impression to proceed in ways different from those we may have thought of.”
– John H. Groberg
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