I feel like that often I cant react to anything going on around me. Sometimes I am grateful for the feeling as deep inside me its like it dampened down the awful feelings of the depression. Right now I am walking around and if it wasnt for that feeling I would be crying all the time. I came from work today and just laid down on my bed feeling numb just staring into space. I wish I had not wrote this now because I have to leave out to do my p/m shift and I want to cry I need to hold it in as I am working with people and none of them feel comfortable around me since I said I suffer from depression.