Elana, I can totally understand where you are coming from. I too have been out of work for a long time now, with everyone telling me I have to work, but the idea of it makes me break down & cry.

I know I have to work, too, because my husband cannot carry the financial load by himself much longer & we are living on the edge of losing everything if he misses too much work. I know all of this in my head, yet I still fear going back to work & I'm supposed to start a new job tomorrow.

I guess I really don't know what the answer is for either of us; I wanted to let you know that you are not alone, however. Hopefully we both can find our proper place in this world where we feel comfortable & fit in. Have you tried starting your own home business? Do you make any crafts you could sell? Could you do some kind of work at home...there are legitimate companies that offer working at home. I'd try them but I don't have an office space where I can put my PC & shut off the noise from the house.

Peace be with you.

Kim