So I've been suffering with depression and an eating disorder for a few years now. I started college a couple of weeks ago to try and fill a void and it was going great up until this week. I've really been enjoying the course but have found it extremely difficult to mix with people so end up walking round for about 2hrs on my own every day (breaks and lunch.) I didn't mind this too much because I knew it was only a short term thing but I've found it SO difficult these last couple of days.

Whilst in town at lunch I all of a sudden feel like breaking down and crying in the middle of the street because I can't carry on. I don't feel like mentally I can carry on and physically I find it so hard just to walk a few steps. Time seems to go by so slowly and the 10 minute walk back to college is almost unbearable and it's the worst I've felt for a long, long time. I'm not really sure if it's because I'm alone and have a lot of stuff going through my mind (even if I'm not completely aware) or if it's because I don't really eat a lot during the day and my body is crying out for food but it's just this overwhelming feeling of distress that I can't even begin to describe but it's just really horrible. Even when I get back to college I literally feel dead and sit there wishing I could just sleep for the entire day so I don't have to feel what I am feeling. I am absolutely terrified about going into college now because I can't bear feeling this way and I just have no idea what to do with myself.

I guess what I'm asking is, has anyone ever had anything similar to this and if you have.. what was the reason you felt like this and how did you overcome it?!

Thanks