Glad you're having fun planning that Halloween costume, Innzerzone!!

(((((((((vj)))))))))))) Really glad you're doing well and didn't have much anxiety when you got up today!! Yay! Hope the school conference goes well!

(((((((((((PT)))))))))))) I'm really sorry you haven't heard back about that job. That sucks. Apart from anything else, it's just rude of them not to get back to you at all. I don't understand why they can't get in touch. I'm really sorry!! And I totally understand why you got your hopes up. It's really crappy to feel the disappointment now. Ugh. Well done for doing the volunteering and I really hope you feel motivated again very soon

I had a really bad night. It started shortly before I got into bed. I had some chest pain. I think it was a muscular thing. I've had something similar before and I did go to the ER that time. The doc said it was inflammation of the muscles of my chest wall. I don't know if the thing I felt last night was the same thing, but it was similar. It wasn't that bad, but it was enough to make me nervous and to put me on a state of "high alert". I've had a number of different tests on my heart recently (EKG and holter monitor) because a lot of my symptoms feel like they could be heart problems. The doctor tells me my heart is fine.....So why do I keep getting these weird symptoms????

I got into bed and found it really hard to lie still. It's very hot here at the moment and we've got a couple of noisy fans blowing in our bedroom (we don't have air-conditioning because we typically only get a handful of nights a year when the temp doesn't drop). The noise of the fans was stressing me out. I kept getting up and wandering around. Eventually I went to sleep and then I woke up at 6.00 am and was immediately at like a level 9 anxiety. I got up and my legs felt like jelly and I was really shaky and felt really strange and not well. I forced myself to walk around the house. I didn't have any chest pain anymore, just these other really strange feelings. I guess I paced around for about 45 minutes. Then I went back to bed and dozed. When it was time to get up I felt really exhausted and I still feel very anxious. What is this crap????????????????????? Seriously?? What is this???? How can going to bed at night be such a source of stress?? I have these weird things happening at night so often (where I wake up and feel awful and have to pace around). Ugh.

I see my therapist this afternoon. I've only recently started seeing this woman (I've had therapy before, but then took a break). She's nice but I don't know if she can help. I don't know if anyone can help. I wish I could figure out what was going on with me.

Well, sorry to write that out in such detail!!!

Hugs to all!!