Hi Kelly, I am new to this forum and have been reading but not had courage to write. Now I am so inspired to share my own fears without fear because YOU and ALL the people on here ARE so OPEN, this in itself should be seen positively. I know exactly what you have been going through. When you have kept all your hurt, dark thoughts and feelings inside for so long,where tobeginI have just started therapy and have been so scared of being sent to hospital. I have been told I have a slight personality disorder as I feel lostand insecure. The thing is if you beginto voice out your feelings and can do so, you are moving in the right direction.Iwas frustrated ay first, I wanted a quick fix but this is going to take time.I have more positive thoughts than I did a week ago so my T is working. Hope your therapy brought some light relief, be kind to yourself. Mary Jane