You're trying the best you can at a very triggery time, and you have a right to be heard. I'm so glad you're reaching out. Go ahead and vent!!
I know very well how difficult things are for you right now. You have friends, Trinity. It's perfectly okay to lean on us for support when you need to. Just take one day at a time ... we will get through this together. It is a privilege and an honor to know you.
(((((Trinity)))))