What would you do if you had a borderline personality?

I'm tired of how people think I'm a bad person. Someone here called my behaviour "histronic". This hurt my feelings.

I can't help doing the things that I do. Most of the time I don't know that I'm doing something wrong. I don't know how to interact with people in healthy ways.

I'm like a small child who never got socialized. I'm sorry I don't know how to fit in and behave like a normal person.

What would you do if you had a borderline personality? Is it hopeless for me? My depressions are severe and real. The pain is horrific, and yet people say I'm being histronic and manipulative.

How would you feel if people called your (very real) suicide threats manipulative? Wouldn't that make you even more suicidal? It does for me.

How do I survive in this world? Where people do not understand?

I'm starting to think it is hopeless for me.