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Old Sep 28, 2010, 06:32 PM
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made it to T, I was about 15 mins late (which never happens!) and as soon as I walked in the door she said "I don't have anyone after you, so you'll get your whole session, it's okay".

I gave her my brain dump list above and we talked about it. Then we went into trauma stuff again. I didn't really WANT to, but then I never do want to. I think T was right to stick to the game plan, because while I may have had a good argument for not doing it today, I would probably be able to come up with one next week too, and the week after, and...

So, yeah. Spent a lot of time in trauma mode, not sure we covered very much ground but it felt like forever. It was hard, really hard, going back into it after the 3 week break. I was surprised how much it hurt, how hard it was, I had already forgotten how that feels.

I'm tired, exhausted really. Sad and lonely and all those things I know I've written here over and over, week after week, in all the months I've been doing trauma work. It's not any easier. It doesn't hurt any less. It doesn't feel like it's better or it will ever stop.

I'm angry, just a little. This isn't something I experience very often, but yeah. I'm angry.
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