((((((( Zoo ))))))) It is ok for you to feel this way. That is the thing about trauma - it leaves the innocent feeling how you feel right now. And that is why the word CRIME doesn't even scratch the surface.

I know you want to be done because it hurts. No one sane would want to feel what you have to feel right now. But you only have to feel THIS about THAT once !!! It really does clean the past. In so many ways I can't explain.

You are doing the work. And this will give you the freedom you deserve. Allow all this junky uckkkkkk to come up. Keep posting here on PC if you need to or want to - and let it out. Send me a PM if you want and you can even tell me not to read it and delete it and I will if you want that. Or reach out to your T and just make sure you are ok. This level of pain is not normal and not fair. ... but it will not last... you will make it through to the other side. And we are right here with you.