Hi, Jen29.

Your words are meaningful. They tell a story of two torments -- psychological and physical. They tell another story of seeking treatment, which, unfortunately, turned out to be ineffective.

I would like to tell you to go ahead and burden someone to ensure your safety. Yet, when the imperative "to not be a burden to others" is so ingrained, the reluctance to reach out can be overwhelming.

I hope you can find a way to reach out, and find those who will help.