i wasn't strong enough to follow through. i canceled the appointment. i miss what we had and can't seem to let go of the hope it will come back. i'm letting go of the other guy too since he'd rather be there for my husband than me. i want to live my life and remember who i was. i just wish someone could say 'do this and things will get better' i wish i could see a light at the end of the tunnel instead of more tunnel.