Wide awake. Its just after 3.15am and I am up for work in 3 hours. Been crying. Cant sleep. Not tired. Started writin stuff down. Came out in big messy handwritin. Argh! I feel I had to write it all. I needed to get it out on paper. But its stressing me out.

I have my gp app later this afternoon. No idea wat she is gonna say. I dont want to tell her everything as it means I cant cope and she wil defo want me off of work. Financially is not worth it. I am just gonna throw myself into my work. I have a ton of paper work I have to do anyways. I am a bit speeded up tonight. Well this mornin. Technically it is here. U guys r lucky its stil Tuesday where some of u r! Wish it was me. I am stressin out. Slightly panicin but not too much! Broke up with my boyfriend of only 6 wks on Monday nite. Have no friends at work as they have all ditched me. This is playin on my mind. Cant get it out. Life is so bloody complicated for no REASON at all right?