I survived last night with the klonopin, but I still feel agitated and obsessive and quite grumpy this morning. I have an appointment with the Pdoc on Monday, but I'm thinking I might need to see him sooner if I can get in.

If I were to to go the ER, they'd probably hospitalize me and call it another mixed episode. I can't afford to be hospitalized right now. My school situation is precarious enough as-is, and I'm determined to somehow finish this program. I need this to just go away so I can be fully functional again.

Something isn't right, and I feel like reality is slowly (and thank goodness it's slow) slipping away from me. No hallucinations or anything... yet... but I don't think I'm too far off from that (actually, I think I hallucinated a light and a sound in my room last night that made me sit bolt upright right as I was falling asleep.)

So, I'm going to contact the psychiatrist again and ask him if he can see me sooner. Wish me luck.