I didn't go to the job today. I woke up this morning throwing up, throat sore, aching, fever. Can the mind do this to the body? My husband told me to stay home, so I did. I was so exhausted I feel back to sleep immediately.

I feel so tired right now, ashamed of myself, I am so weak. Why can't I be stronger & overcome this? So depressed, so tired of it all. Tired of trying to change, tired of fighting the fear & sadness all the time.

I called my ear, nose, & throat doctor because I do know there is an infection in my sinuses again but she's out of the office until mid-October. I am waiting for a call back from them.

I am such a failure. My mother used to tell me I was a failure all the time whenever I didn't live up to her expectations. I guess she was right.

Kim