Thank you, lotusflames, for posting back and letting us know how your appointment with your pdoc went. I can really relate to your feelings of crashing and not being able to "keep up with [your] 'all over the place' moods anymore." I have had the same "crashing" experience, and I also shared your sense of hopelessness in believing things would not get better and not being so sure I cared if they did. I hope you do not mind me reaching out and giving you a hug. I just want you to know that, despite my feelings of hopelessness and despair, things did get better for me. It took awhile, but between talking about my feelings and some medication changes, I did begin to feel good and to care about living again.

Lotusflames, I am wondering if there is one thing, be that work or a hobby or a friend or Psych Central, that you can grab onto as something to look forward to each day until you regain your desire for life again ~ and I am believing you will regain the will to live and to live fully. You deserve to have a full and great life, lotusflames! Thank you again for sharing yourself with us! You really do matter!