Kim,

Your mother was wrong.
You are brave and strong....

Just totally wiped out from a flu and or sinus infection. (I know I feel more depressed when I get sick too). Your defenses are down.
Please keep taking care of yourself. Maybe go back to seeing yourself as that little girl and take care of her the way she was meant to be cared for.
This is not your fault.
Think of it this way.
Would anyone ever ask to feel this way? No way.
Keep pushing the fluids.
I hope you feel better soon.