Hi Alisa. I'm sorry you are going through such a terrible time.

When you say your doctor won't help, what do you mean? Won't see you? Doesn't understand the issue? Is this a mental health provider or just your general practitioner? If your doctor won't help, maybe you should try another doctor.

By the way, you have a lot of people you can ask for help. You have just reached out to a multitude of people who have, or are going through, what you just described. Also, a lot of cities have phone numbers to counselors who work at crisis centers. I have found sometimes its easier to talk to a stranger on the phone about your problems because they don't know you and don't have preconceived ideas about your situation.

I sure hope your situation gets better soon.

Hugs