thank you sugahorse and PT52 I live with my friend and her parents and pay them rent but i'm already a month behind. My mum said i could stay with her for a bit till i get straight but i'd feel bad because i don't think they would be able to afford the rent on the house if i moved out. I've not built up the courage to tell her thats what i want to do because all this business is makin me ill and very depressed!