I was given Prozac about ten years ago when I took them them it made me feel so confident something I had never experienced in my life. But the downside was I got tummy upsets, anxious and felt like my heart was racing all the time like I was in a hurry to do everything I felt manic and worst of all I felt suicidal. I had to come off it, the only good part was the feeling of confidence but the side effects outweighed all the other awful feelings. I am going through a really bad time at the moment well the moment has lasted since Dec 09 I have real bad days and the only thing I am using is St Jons wort. I have to force myself to go to work as I have family responsibilities also I am afraid of losing my job. From the age of 16 until I was 24 I lived in homless accomadation and temporary housing. I remember how awful I felt and usless when I couldnt get jobs as I couldnt afford childcare and the times I did have a job I was redudant. I spent so much time on welfare which my family made me ashamed of. Through bouts of depression I have been working for the last 14 years and am so afraid of losing this job. I am afraid to go on medication again remembering what effect the Prozac had on me. I go to see a therapist this friday but am afraid of that as well as if my workplace found out they would look at me differently and then find an excuse to get rid of me. I feel so bad inside all the time and and crying constantly. I know I look awful as people keep asking me if I am ok what can I say but I ok just feeling under the weather. One person thats known me for year phoned me and told me all her problems and when I told how I had been feeling lately she said " Oh I never knew you still feel like that I thought you got over all that stuff" Haven't heard from her since. Only meant to write about my experience with Prozac but am feeling so bad had to get it out.