It's really hard when you feel like people don't understand your pain. Although i can't feel your pain, I know what it's like to be in that place where it feels like the pain is killing you. Where the pain is absolutely unbearable. It's hell. I'm real sorry that you have such terrible pain. It feels as though you can't go on another second in that state and even when you seek people out to try to relieve your pain they can't really take it away. Just talking about it helps somehow though. Maybe not right then but you will be able to look back and see that there were people there who listened. I know it's hard to feel comfort when people say, i know how you feel. That to me does nothing. Sometimes it makes me feel as though they are just making up an excuse to shut me up about how much pain I'm in. I'm sick of pretending that everything is fine when really i am dying inside. I'm really screaming out 'help'.
Sending you hugs and i hope you are able to get good treatment so you can enjoy life.