I have cried out to the only person I have in life, my husband. He doesnt seem to care as I need or thought he would. He only listens when it is convient for him, screw my needs NASCAR is on etc. I have flat out told him my plans now, can't say it here, and he continues so, I .....lets just say out of tears and out of hope. When I met this man, he was so wonderful. He is a good man and every one LOVES and RESPECTS him in our small town. But after the last year or so when I have been so very sick, he only seems close to me when he wants something. I feel like he talks to me like a child being punished now... not as a husband caring for his wife. It is getting to the point that I want to run, but I have no place to go.

He found something I had and scolded me as if I were 9. He didn't care about me, he acts every day as if I am a burdon even though he says he loves me but we are just in the same house......no relationship as far as I am concerned. I want to HURT him so badly....not physically but mentally because he doesn't listen to me.

Sorry, I am on edge today