Alisa9,
It sounds like you are going through a really difficult time right now. Just to echo what has already been said, I hope that you can find ways to get some support right now. Call a crisis line if you need to, or go to the emergency room. Does your community have a mental health agency? They might be able to connect you with a therapist or doctor. You said that you were feeling suicidal and that you hadn't eaten for three days... there's some urgency here to get help fast. You don't have to face this alone. I'm glad you posted here. Keep posting, and let us know how you are doing.

peace,
garden gal