I have one emotion 98% of the time. Its happy. People often comment on how amazing it is that I am such a happy person who is always smiling. And that I never get mad, ever. Never crosses their mind that it might be odd to act this way. As for how it feels, I dont know. It what Ive always done for so long. I dont even know how I feel deep down. I think its good that you do, even they are not good feelings. So, I understand what you are saying and I think the others are right, it just takes some time.