I went to bed about 3 hours ago without any meds. It was only 10pm which is early for me; I was thinking I might perhaps get up later tonight to be productive.

But I have been dreaming about my abusive boyfriend's brother trying to kill me. Right now I have him locked in a closet but since he is an attorney nobody in law enforcement will help me. The details are vivid but writing them would only give them more power so I won't

Tell me how I can go to sleep and not dream about this. And why am I having nightmares anyway? The anniversary of boyfriend's death was Sept 19. Usually I get very stressed until that date and then I relax. But I have been having occasional nightmares in the last several weeks.

I wish I had a guard dog.