Thanks Innerzone. I think the pdoc is hoping that we can get away with 100mg if at all possible.
Yesterday was a bit of a better for me. I felt stronger and more assertive and I think I managed to get some stuff done. Also didn't feel the need to climb into bed @ 7:30.

I've cancelled my app with T - told her I had too much work on my plate (Which is partially true). I think part of me just didn't want to go. I feel anxious to see her after smsing on Tues close to a nervous breakdown, and now I feel strong enough to at least survive each day. (I.e. I feel like a bit of a fraud) I also don't know what to explain to her or discuss with her when i'm not nearly at breakdown point. So I chickened out. I hope I can keep the pieces together today in the mean time...
Not sure if it is right, but I am actually anxious/scared to see her... And I do trust her.
arg - Why am I this way?
Started the day off by snapping at my boyfriend, so that didn't set a good tone.