I admit that one things for sure? I'm consumed by guilt. I'm not ashamed to my mistakes at all?!!! Grrrrrrr!!!!!!! I'm only human and. God does know who. I am and where all my falls and slip ups too!! I'm an imperfect angel anyway? I know that but what the hell hmmm!!! I just don't give a f**k anymore anyways? I just want him to put me outta my misery and be done with it?