Hi,

I have a quick question but the post may be long....sorry.

I was diagnosed a year and a half ago with GAD and depression. It was triggered after my Dad died and really kicked my butt for a while. I went on Paxil CR and saw a Psychologist for a while. I got better and went of the drug and quit seeing my psychologist...couldn't afford it anymore.

Well, there has been so many things going on in my life that I feel like I'm being drug under that dark cloud again. It's not the same as it was a couple of years ago, but the crying has started again, the waking up several times a night, the loneliness and lack of desire to do anything anymore...I know these feelings very well. The last time this happened to me, I had the anxiety attacks, the lack of appetite, and an almost agoraphobic feeling...I was afraid to leave my house or go too far from it.

This time isn't as bad, but I don't want it to get there. I'm made an appointment to see a psychologist but I don't want to go on meds. Do you think that it's a necessity to do both or should I try this first. I really don't ever want to feel that way again.

Also, is depression something that's inside me forever or is it caused by circumstances? My circumstances are very extreme, but I don't want to break down when faced with a crisis all the time. I used to be really really strong until my Dad died and now it seems like I'm very very weak.

Thanks for any insight you can give me. I realize that your answer has to be limited but thanks for anything you can give me.

Rebekkah Littman