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Originally Posted by zooropa
Am I trying to push her and see how far I can go? Am I trying to test the relationship and make sure we're okay? Do I really need to talk to her? And are any of those reasons valid ones for calling her at home at 10pm? Is it ok to have those needs? And why DO I feel such a huge sucking hole inside of me? It's all spinning around in my head. I don't know what to do.  |
(((((((((((((zoo)))))))))))))))))))
I had a bad weekend a couple of weekends ago and I e-mailed T/left him phone messages A LOT. I looked at my sent messages at the end of the weekend and I was totally surprised at how many times I e-mailed.
We had a session last Thursday that was hard but one of those steps forward in healing, and I don't think I called or e-mailed at all last weekend.
During the session after the hard weekend, i said something like "I've been having a hard time" and T said "I know, I could tell by how much you e-mailed"...and I immediately went into "are you mad? was it too much? etc." And he WASN'T mad, and it WASN'T too much. For him, it's information: "treehouse is overwhelmed, and struggling".
Sometimes we need a lot of support, and sometimes we are fine on our own. Both are okay, both are part of healing. It's okay to need support right now. It's even okay to reply to your own thread
Breathe, sweet zoo
