I didn't call my T again, and I did sleep. I was so so scared to even try to sleep after my experiences yesterday of having flashbacks every time I closed my eyes, but in the end I just got in bed and went to sleep and had no flashbacks or nightmares. PHEW!

I feel like crap today, physically, and I think it's some kind of emotional hangover from the huge mess of yesterday. I'm trying to just take it easy today and do things that feel good and nurturing. Trying to love me, I guess.