Well I crashed and burned earlier this year.

First PDoc mid last year said all my problems where related to my to marriage! Huh!!!!! Went to another and she said it was Bipolar2 started me on Prozac & Valproate. She was happy to see me so long as I paid up front. Once I couldn't I was basicially dumped. Started having ups & downs all in the one day for days on end. No sleep, pacing, anxiety etc. Nothing different same rubbish just a different day.

Finally got my husband into a doctor and we where given the worst possible news, he has mutipule cancers. I knew he was sick last year hence my depression & manic jive. Completely losted it in April and went into hospital for the first time for Bipolar, whilst there they upped my meds, took 1 out, and sorted when to take my others. I rattle in the mornings after taking a handful of drugs. Not only did I have Bipolar 2, I also was Dx with Borderline Personality Disorder.

Things have been fine for a while until now. Each day I see my husband waste away. He isn't eating much but wants to continue the chemo. I try to be strong for him but inside I am falling apart. The old me is coming back not sure if I actually liked her as she was around for alot of years.