(((Blackpup))) That's great your supervisor gave you such positive feedback! I don't think there is anything wrong with feeling good when someone praises us!! Well done for going such a great job!!

((((Merlin)))) Wishing you all the very best!

((((Baythemoon)) It's awesome you did something different - and fun!! - last night. I totally agree with you that it's really important to change some of our habits

(((((((vj)))))))) Really glad you're doing well today!! It's great you handed in some applications for your husband. Still keeping everything crossed for you!!

((((((((PT))))))) Keeping everything crossed for you too!! I can totally believe that job hunting sucks. Well done for sticking with it!!!!! Really, really hope the hunt doesn't last long and you find something soon that you like.

(((((((((Northern)))))))))))) I'm so sorry about your husband. That is a huge blow. Especially as you say that things were going so much better until you got his diagnosis. My heart goes out to you

((((((PT)))))))) Thanks for the suggestion about eating. I do think that could have something to do with it. The trouble is I feel nauseous a lot of the time so just don't want to eat. But when I do eat, I usually feel better. So there is definitely something to that. Just wish I didn't feel so nauseous!!

I managed to get an appointment with my psychiatrist this afternoon. I had emailed him telling him that my anxiety was out of control but that I was still unwilling to take benzos and would prefer to try another anti-depressant first. He emailed me back to say he'd had a cancellation this afternoon and I should come in then to discuss options. Even though I'm scared about coming off Zoloft and trying something new, I know that the Zoloft just isn't cutting it with my anxiety and that it's pointless staying on it any longer.

I am undecided as to what to try next since I've already been on all the other SSRIs and SNRIs. However, since my Anxiety Disorder is relatively new (used to be that depression/dysthymia was my main problem) I think it's worth giving another SSRI a shot. I'm thinking Paxil. I used to take Paxil years ago but had to quit because it was too sedating. Now that I'm so anxious all the time, I'm thinking Paxil might be just the right thing. It is a pain having to stop and start new meds but I'm trying to stay hopeful.......There HAS to be a way to feel better than I've been feeling lately.

My medical doc got back to me and said I should get more blood work done. I think that is a cop out and pretty pointless since I had a full blood panel (or whatever it's called) just a month ago and it was all normal. I had asked her to refer me to a neurologistm but she said she didn't think that was necessary at this point (try living in my body for a day and then tell me that!!!!!! ). I'm thinking I will ask my psychiatrist if he can refer me to a neurologist when I see him later today.

Hugs to all!!!!!!