((((justdontknow))))

Thank you for posting. I hear you and am listening. I feel lost today and that feeling of discouraged screams louder than anything right now. I am so sorry you are feeling this way. I know that with time and continued reaching out and looking within these feelings can lift. But right now they are strong and feel so heavy on ones heart.

Please know that we care and are here for you. Listen to your heart and know that you are not alone. I am sorry that the littles feel it too and are scared. But I do get that too. Please keep reaching out and asking for what you need. I am proud of you for asking what you can. I know it is hard to do that.

I understand how the littles crying can make us feel bad, but by you reaching out here you are helping yourself and helping them. Do something kind for yourself Chris, you deserve it. That rational and logical thinking will come back. Sometimes we are hardest on ourselves and even though we do not deserve that we learned it well.

Chris, do you have positives written anywhere? We have a journal for positives and on days like today we get it out and whether we can write a single other positive down, we sign and date the journal and read what is already there. It allows us to read even when we are feeling so down and out, but to re-iterate what we know to be true but just cannot feel right now.

Keeping it separate from other journaling so that it is not sabatoged by the feelings we are haing right now that will lift once again. When we are not feeling so bad we can then write more positives within that journal so that when times like this hit again we can once again go back and date when we just read. But the "just reading" can seep in a little at a time creating hope amongst the others and yourself.

Do take care of yourself hon. Know that we care and are listening and hearing you. Keep reaching you are not alone. Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps